What is the luck!!!!????

Been very unlucky for the past weeks a bit down a bit sick all together. . . A package that I never wish or hope for but I just hope the rainbow will come after the rain. . . Or at least a little light at the end of the very dark tunnel…

It sets me thinking today (yet again) if I really in for what I am doing now. . . In terms of career . . . Haiz life all about choices, decision n what else. . It always very depressing when you set your mind to charge and then meet fall back and get lose in the very messy situation or failure! It just tiring to repeat this cycle but then I guess without this, we will never learn too to be a better person too. Dilemma dilemma!!!!

Well for now just want to chill n take a back seat. . . Fate n luck is what I really need now

Blog morrreeee

Perhaps with this I will blog more!!

almost forgotten…

i also forgotten about this blog.. it’s been such a long laspe of time that i didn’t update… … while reading through the entries… i was thinking to kill the whole blog since i don’t belong to the type which wil really write all the mudane things day in and day out… but then again i remember when i used to decide to keep a blog – my objective is a channel for me to write my inner thoughts and emotions. .. something that i found it real hard to express myself in real life… …

and when reading the enties i realised how times files, and i am certainly glad to jot down some pieces of life journey as when i grew old, the entries seem to remind me of the good memory or bad experience i had…

life been good to me so far…. and i am still the same old me…. perhaps i should really write often…

a journey

it’s a beautiful journey so far in 2010. perhaps with times goes by, people do change. it’s weird sometimes to think about how i ended up with my life so far, and the path taken was a like a roller coaster. simplicity is beautiful and this is very much a motto for my stage of life at this moment. a simple dinner, a simple thought and a simple hug, that kindda make me very happy and statisfied. i guess after all the ups and downs, it’s a blessing to be who i am right now.

i am looking forward to my life… and i had a strong feeling everything will be much better.

catching up

spent last friday with the best pals.. sy and larry. it’s been a long while since you catch up with each other and sharing our “thoughts” and life. Age is really catching up with us, and the topics revolve around flats, marriage and career. haha…

and we have known each other for 17 years … it’s really nice spending a friday night in this mode. seriously, if you pals are reading this (sy, larry, ivy).. we should really do this more often before we are all too busy with our “marriage” and with kid life ha ha.. Let’s plan the next one soon yeah!!!

To you guys, it’s been a wonderful 17 years old knowing you guy, though the time spent is getting lesser but i know somewhere and somehow, we are all “in each other’s heart” keke….
thanks for been friends!

the new beginning

i only woke up today to realise it’s really the brand new year. the festives just came and went in a blink. had a fun and must say a memorable start into the new year with the sam and the gang. 1 jan 2010, a mix of everything all in place for a great day out. drinking in harry’s + steamboat at crystal jade + bits of retro and lots of bollywood music and dance + salsa, latin and a sudden attack from sam + bed at 5am … and dragging myself at the next day for sat work!! lots of brooze, laughter, and action.

2009 had been an eventful year for me. new job, ROM, friends in and out, dramatic ups and down with my boy, fullfilling a meaningful mission, and finally ended 2009 in the most unexpected way and place! life’s been good so far though the same old stuff still happens sometimes with the boy. but then again, those are the things that made us a marriage couple, i guess.

going in to the new year, no big resolutions set so far. just want to be happy, simple and blessed with every single moment of life.

i woke up today to only realise the life is such beautiful, only if you want it to. i will write more this year.

tcc log cakes

Hi friends

this is really all about work… as you may know, i had left the hotel and joined the tcc, and this year. i am sort of given the task for SELLING LOG CAKES through bulk purchase.. so if you know of anyone/company that is looking at purchasing log cakes in bulk quantity, do let me know… ok…..pls pls pls …

thanks in advance!!!

如果有一天我消失了

Saw this online and thought it was beautiful…..

如果有一天我消失了，你会不会害怕会不会发了疯地找我？然后因为找不到我而难过?
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会在家里呆呆地坐着，傻傻地掉着泪等我？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会锁起日记，只为我开，只为我留言？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会每天无数次地点击我的空间，看我来过的痕迹？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会认真的用心看着我空间的每篇文章？然后发觉我其实挺爱你！
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会在半夜突然醒来，想我想到泣不成声？无法入眠？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会每天开着Q，开着游戏等我？
如果有一天我消失了，当你看到好友上线时会不会一阵紧张，以为是我？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会看着无聊的肥皂剧流泪？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会在街上走的时候想到我，想到蹲在地上哭泣？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会像上面我说的一样去做？
如果有一天你消失了，以上就是我的写照，如果你爱我，你也一定会，是吗？

如果有一天我消失了，不是因为我不爱你了，是因为我身不由己。
如果有一天我消失了，你一定要好好照顾你自己，不要再让我担心你。
如果有一天我消失了，那是因为我怕见到你，怕你告诉我你即将离去。
如果有一天我消失了，那是因为我心已死，需要有人来将那一道道伤痕抹去。
如果有一天我消失了，那是因为我得不到你的吻你的拥抱你的爱…

曾经以为恋爱就要轰轰烈烈一旦触动就一发不可收拾。
可是现实总是残酷，时间总是折磨人。
美好的时光总是很短暂 ，而长时间的美好却又是将来痛苦的根源。
回忆总是捉弄人，人总是被牵着走。
不管是男人女人大人小孩老人，都被玩弄于手掌。
如果有一天我消失了 ，你也不会找我的吧。
你会顺其自然等我出现，还说勉强没有幸福，该怎样就怎样世界上没有什么了不起的东西。
是啊…
我们已经不再年轻 ，不是以前冲动的小孩。
渐渐成熟懂得思考什么有利，什么没用。
不会再象以前那样傻傻的等，傻傻的追。

有时候，爱情会成为一种习惯。
习惯去照顾一个人，习惯被一个人照顾，习惯某个时间他出现，习惯某个时间他离开。
但往往，习惯是最可怕的东西。
如果有一天，他突然不在了…
第一天，你会觉得很庆幸，有一种被解放的自由。
第二天，没什么感觉，还可以很快乐。
第三天，心里好象少了点什么，心惶惶的，带着一些不安。
慢慢的，寂寞，孤独会象排山倒海一样袭来。
感觉做什么都不对，好象身体少了一部分，心空空的。
怎么样也填不满，怎么样也开心不起来。
终于，习惯，变成了，不习惯…
如果有一天我消失了，不能在你身旁照顾你，你会习惯吗？
也许是因为太在意所以才会太担心离开。
如果真的要离开，我不是害怕自己难过，而是害怕没有人能好好的照顾你，帮你分担。
如果有一天我消失了，请你一定要比我幸福。

亲爱的，如果我消失了，这将是我的遗书…
这是我第一次这样叫你，也可能是最后一次！
如果有一天我消失了，我还没告诉你其实我一直都在一个网站每天都写下对你的思恋和牵挂…
如果有一天我消失了，我还没有来得及告诉你，我真的准备和你一起走完此生…
如果有一天我消失了，我看不到有谁会为我哭泣，为我伤心！我想象有你，却无法证实。
如果有一天我消失了，有谁会来为我完成心里头一直放不下的事…
我以为我是一个视生命于不屑的人，是一个对生命没有眷念的人，但就在今天我忽然发现自己对死亡的恐惧，原来我也只是一个偶尔会发神经质的普通女人，无法做到无牵无挂的消失人间…
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会知道其实你是很爱我，其实你是真的很在乎我的？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会一直等我？等我回到你身边…

是不是我真的消失了你才会发现身边还有个我？
是不是我真的消失了你才会想起来很想珍惜我？
是不是我真的消失了你才会知道怎么样来爱我？
是不是我真的消失了你才会感觉到当初我爱你？
是不是我真的消失了你才会舍得给我一私可怜？
是不是我真的消失了你才会明白你真的失去了？
是不是我真的消失了你才会懂得什么是真的爱？
是不是我真的消失了你才会伤心到想要再爱我

说好的幸福呢

周杰伦-说好的幸福呢
词:方文山曲:周杰伦

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了

时间过了走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了倦了我哭了
离开时的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

怎么了你累了
说好的幸福呢
我懂了不说了
爱淡了梦远了
我都还记得

你不等了
说好的幸福呢
我错了泪干了
放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

so long so good

can’t believe that in the next 3 months, its gonna be year 2010…. things changed quite a bit this year with the new job and the going-to-be soon new status…

for the closed ones… the “big” day is going to be on the 3 November.. and nope, nothing had been prepared yet! We are just tossing the idea of having a really simple affair with the Rom plus a hi-tea for the family.. but will keep you gals updated.. will def.  love to have you around to share the joy … going to get the ring this sunday.. so it’s almost to be finalised ha ha..

Mixed feelings… happy but perhaps scared at the same times.. think it’s just the emotion thingy been the only daughter and seeing my mum cried when he “broke” the news to her… i wonder it’s the tears of joy or tears of “saddness” that i’m  leaving her in a way…. i broke down too knowing that it will be a different phrase of life… somehow it’s will be just different…

but i guess it made me grew up too dealing with all these emotions and finding the best solution for everyone… i just hope that the marriage will be a smooth journey… that’s all i ask for… no big wedding no big woo-ha… just a simple, cosy and blessing event…

friends…i really GETTING MARRIED !!! ha ha